This is a place holder

This is a place holder for a piece I keep meaning to write about gender identity, sexuality, and eating disorders. I feel like so much of my early disconnection, distrust, and disgust with my body was in response to trauma definitely, but also became dug in deeper and morphed in to different experiences and questions … Continue reading This is a place holder

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Weight Gain, Doctors, and Eating Disorder Recovery

This is my body on the day when my doctor fat shames me and tells me that my recent increase in pain may be related to weight gain. She warns of diabetes. She says “your weight is not good.” She tells me all of this while I am sitting in a chair that reminds me … Continue reading Weight Gain, Doctors, and Eating Disorder Recovery

Life as a Struggling Goddess: Recovery Wins and Struggles

Recently I’ve been struggling a lot with fitting lunch into my work schedule. I want it to be there. I feel better when I eat three meals, best when I also eat a couple snacks. I’ve been pretty good at remembering to bring snacks recently, which has been a persistent struggle since I started Dog … Continue reading Life as a Struggling Goddess: Recovery Wins and Struggles

Believer-Poem written in 2014…featuring painting from 2016

I’m already vicariously exhausted by all the cinematic events. The car chases, lovemaking, bullet hole right through the eye in the back of my head. Just after the second coming of that realization that should have resolved everything.   I think I took both pills at the same time, which is never a good idea.  Now … Continue reading Believer-Poem written in 2014…featuring painting from 2016